When it's all over, there will be nothing left to do, except to remember, to remember everything.
I didn't know much about him, but I made a silent prayer for Sushant Singh Rajput last night hoping that he finds his peace and meets his mother he missed so dearly and often articulated on his social media posts. I cannot get over the fact that a young man like him, full of ambitions and dreams, hopes is no more. Gone. Just like that. It feels like a personal loss. The dull gloomy weather outside doesn't help me much to let my mind wander off elsewhere. While most of the people say suicide isn't a way out, what about the pain that the person goes through, the feelings and sadness where ending the life seems the only viable option. No one touches a hot iron not knowing how much it will hurt, no one dies by suicide not knowing the consequences. I am not romanticizing suicide. No, not one bit. But imagine, the person is not left with any other option. The pain, the pressures he must be having to make a mark.
As social media and interviews suggest, Sushant was eccentric, clearly a misfit in the world of plastics- Bollywood. But he did want an acceptance from the industry he worked so hard to make a mark in. So many theories making rounds that he was depressed, that he wasn't accepted and always seen as an outsider. To be honest, I wasn't a big fan either, some how social media and these entertainment shows play with your mind and fit this image of a quintessential actor in your mind. From what I read now, he asked his fans to watch his movie, that he had no godfather to sustain in this industry. Perhaps he was cornered. Perhaps he wasn't good enough for this world. We will never know for he's gone far away... to the galaxy full of stars he was always fascinated with.
But his death made me introspect. I've been not the best person myself. I've often mocked, ridiculed not just celebrities but also people I have known, some who have been extremely close to me at some point. It hit me after the news of Sushant's death. That to be kind, it takes nothing but to be negative, disdainful of someone takes away a lot not just from you but also impacts the person a lot more than you can imagine. What this world definitely needs is kindness, empathy with lots of love and compassion. For us to change, be a better version of ourselves won't happen overnight but at least we can try, we can start somewhere. We can try to make this world that is so polluted with negativity and hatred a better place to live in, for the coming generations, with positive vibes.
I lament thinking that did a person have to die, for us to understand this? Let us try and be the change we wish to see. Let's start this with at home, with one day at a time. Rest in paradise, Sushant Singh Rajput. You taught us a lot in this little time you had. I will remember and keep you in my heart always❤
