Time: 6.30 PM
Place: Home
One of those days when existential musings of life hit you... Hard... and I write... Well, type...
Life is weird. It is full of unexpected surprises. Things happen when you least expect them to happen. It pushes you down, makes you fall and get dusty, but you still get up, dust yourself and rise.
While I was in school, every year I'd think and ponder what and how it would be the same day, same time but next year-'Would I surpass my own expectations?', 'Will I finally start liking Science like ideally I should?', 'Surely I'd have read more books than I'd then', and so on...
After almost ages I see myself question and think so, a tad bit differently. Last year who'd thought how different things would be this year. Unexpected decisions, career related hogwash, family/peer pressure...But such is life! Change being the only constant in our lives.
As much as I'd like to detest these random and uncalled events, I see myself getting more stronger and braver-to face these odds. It was of course a great teacher, in the sense that it taught me life lessons like- Things happen when it has to, that events will unfurl when its's meant to. To stick to your heart, and believe in what the heart really wants is the trick to make peace with your mind and soul. Often we're in a fix to do what is right or to do what makes us happy. From the experiences I've had it is- to do what makes you happy. There are probably zillions of things that are morally right for us to do, but that necessarily won't make us or keep us happy. But when we really do things that make us happy, things that make you go-"follow your heart"- the joy is inexplicable.
But being the pragmatic girl (well, at times!) that I am, choosing your happiness also has to be done keeping a lot of things in mind. 'Kinda subversive, kinda Hegemonic'-is how I describe myself. If anything these random events have taught me well- To bend when one should, to be headstrong when required. It is at your vulnerable best, that you can be misguided... easily. But the trick is to stick to your ground, to believe in your instincts... they never fail you. New paths that I have chosen to create a new and beautiful life at times deter me. But it is the instincts that keep me going, at least for now.
People exit for new people to come.Old loves leave for new and beautiful loves to arrive. Relationships end so that new relationships can be made. To never see these new people and relationships from the same convex mirror gives it a better scope for relationships and love to sustain.
Existential musings are always cathartic and a must to purge your mind of unwanted elements. So is music. Especially with some music that goes well with your state of mind... Like Coldplay's Up and Up...
